Jus a Passerby
Men r jus like buses. Woman r jus like bus-stops. E bus u r waiting for never comes. On e other hand, e other buses tat u r not waiting for, passes ur stop every now n then. Honestly speaking frm e bottom of my heart, I dun mean to b mean to anyone. I would hav to say tat it gets on my nerves when I strongly believe both of us noes deep down there isnt much to tok abt. It onli aggravates e whole situation when one party is tryin too hard to get e conversation on-going. E onli reason to explain tis is: there isnt sufficient chemistry n freq between e two pple. It might hav been a wishful tinkin on my part tat e short meet-up on tat day would hav explain it all. To speak e truth, I do not know if e other party feels e same way as I do. I would believe tat most of my frens are aware tat I am not a "homely" person. I would prefer to be out in e streets than wasting my youth at home. It was onli on tat fateful day tat I wished I was at home. Out of boredom, I suggested meeting up since it was eons since we last met. I truly regret making this decision after meeting him. I was tryin veri hard to find topics to hold a proper conversation with him. To my dismay, our conversation ended up more like a Q&A session. He made no effort to hold e conversation as I dont recall him askin me any qns! Furthermore, his ans were either one word ans or veri veri short ans. Awkward silences filled e air ard us. I hav never felt so dreadful to b out wif anyone. After lunch, I felt tat tis isnt gettin anywhere and I decided to go home. In actual fact, I din go home after we part. I left for another place.

I guess I hav no one to blame but myself for getting into tis sticky situation. Mayb e meet up tat dae sparks off sumting in him. As for me, it onli makes me feel more certain tat we hav no chemistry n our wavelength is totally diff. I am unsure wat would b e cause of tis drift. We were not like tis in e past. In my opinion, I would attribute all these to time n e many changes tat had taken place in me. It is to my understanding tat he is jus purely bored. I hope tis is realli e case n not otherwise. On a serious note, I am tired of entertaining him. As he is closely related to one of my close frens, I hav my own reservations of avoiding him or givin him cold shoulder. I can onli hope tat he will come to realise tat tis is not gettin anywhere for him.

As I noe & understand tis unpleasant "feelin" veri well, I am trying to refrain myself frm pushin for any conversation between us. It might b a casual "Hows ur dae?? qn. When e rite person asked tis qn, a warm n happy feelin surfaces out of no where. Yet, when e wrong person asked e exact same qn, it gives off a totally diff feeling. *rolls eyes* Since I am stuck in a similar situation wif e other *him*, I would hav to say tat I can fully understand how he feels. I have to admit there isnt any common topic to begin wif. By tryin too hard, I am not gettin any nearer to my destination. Instead, I am moving further away from it and hurting myself disappointments. Hence, I hav come to a decision tat he is & I will let him b jus a passerby in my life. He is jus a bus which happens to stop by my stop to drop off passengers. :)

Thanks for cheering me up when I was down n making my days in Molex more forward-looking. :)

I guess frens would sae I am a weirdo who loves to thank many pple in my life on my blog. Unfortunately, e ones I thank are never aware of it. Haha...