Gotten a Clearer View
Went out wif e gang of my frens again. Never fails to b funny n happy. :) Thanks for tat. Was recountin wat happened to JY. Sorry for being e TALKATIVE one again. Cos I jus hate silence moments. As I went on n on n on, sumhow I managed to get a clearer view of e situation. I was tinkin abt it as I was travellin home after I left JY.

I guess many would sae loving sumone depends on his/her character. To me, it is pure bullshit. When u do reali fall for one, e character, looks, height n etc etc does not seems to matter anymore. Most probably sum will use "Aiyah...who dun hav flaws?" as a simple reason to brush off e fact tat he/she isnt a good person or he/she does not meet e criteria u hav set. Sum would sae fallin in love...gettin into a relationship depends alot more on feelings...chemistry... Its not realli abt criterias n wat so eva tat u hav set. Even if a million pple told u tat he isnt gd. Would u listen? Wat would u sae?

I would sae...feelings...chemistry...n e fact tat he either reciprocate ur "special feelings" for him or @ e veri least hav good interest for u r e impt things to consider. I would never sae age, height, looks, character or wateva other criterias r impt to me. Cos I hav crushes in e past tat prove tat height, looks, age n character were never e issue. I still dive into e bottomless pit. I hav ever like sumone who is much much older than me...sumone wif below average looks....sumone who is much much taller than me...sumone who isnt of a good character calibre. So wat? After emphasizing so much on these, I hav come to a conclusion tat I am goin to move on. (yeah yeah...I see many pple smiling n sayin "OH FINALLY! U hav straightened out ur tinking!")

Many pple hav told me tat I would find a better one. But who can guarantee tat? Theres no guarantee in tis world. But e fact tat I am moving on is bcos he isnt reciprocating my feelings for him. Tats e major reason. Feelings...I wouldnt sae I din hav for him. If not, I would not feel like cryin as I was tellin e story to JY. But being prideful me who hates to shed a tear in front of anyone, I tried to swallow it. Chemistry...I guess we lost it. No longer tat chemistry. Sumhow sumting jus feel different now. Good interest for me? As a fren, I would sae he did hav e best interest for me in e past. For now, I cant b sure. Readin wat I hav jus written, theres nothin much left to make it possible. Probably, I hav jus missed my bus. I will jus wait for e next bus. Frens...we will b. Since he din sae he din me wanna me tis fren. I would still wanna keep tis frenship. Cos I hate frenships to end jus simply bcos either party hav special feelings for e other.

So so so...
My objective for e comin weeks ahead:

1. Get a job asap to save e hole in my pocket. I noe I keep sayin tat todae. :P Cant help it. Hope $$$ will roll in soon! HUAT AH~!
2. Expand my social circle.

Tats all for now.