Self Reflection
It has been a long long time ever since I last did sumting like tis... I alwaes tell myself tat I will do a reflection soon...but in e end, I din do it afterall. Gonna b a realli long post... Reflecting on myself...wat I can improve n ways of helpin myself. Tis post is more for myself.
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Sumtimes I wonder if I shld b more decisive in wat I wanna do. I guess being e child who is alwaes feaful of my parents dun work at all times. Afterall, my parents cant alwaes b there to help me make decision. So...wat r e contributing factors which led me to b so undecisive? I guess e tot of regret n e fear of makin a wrong decision r truly e ones which r holdin me back to make a firm decision on wat I wanna. Being fearful of my parents...e tot of them reprimanding me n e tot of being disobedient @ times reali put me off. I never wanna b disobedient. E tot of 'fighting' it out wif them jus put me off. Being fearful of my parents...u can sae it is a factor...but a small one...jus an excuse for myself. E biggest enemy is myself. I used to b sumone who will alwaes argue or fight for wat I wanna. But in recent yrs, I learn e importance of peace n harmony. I enjoy e peace I hav wif my family...I oso learn e importance of everyone who makes up my family. Everyone is impt... I never wanna to b back to the olden daes where 'cold war' is such a common thing tat goes on in my family. I guess age has realli caught up wif me.
Bottom Line:
To learn to b more decisive n not fearful of makin mistakes. Admit n learn frm mistakes n never regret over e decision u hav made. Fight for wat u wanna. Forgetful-ness. Tis is a terrible 'fren' who seems to b wif me all these yrs. Its time to chase him/her away. How shld go abt chasing tis fren of mine? Its reali tough qn. I wouldnt wanna to rely too much on my organiser. Wat if I lose it? I will b like a crippled man...unable to propel forward. Its not a solution which is able to help me solve my problem.
Tat will bring abt another prob. Will keep in view for tis trait. :)
Bottom Line:
Find a solution which will work for me on my forgetful-ness.Another huge problem wif me is...irresponsible. Alwaes lose my stuff... Wat is e main factor? Lookin back on e most recent thing I hav lost, my wallet, I remember I was in a daze back then when I got off e bus. I was feelin horrible back then. I love to nap on e bus or even jus to let my tots wander. How can I prevent tis? Be more focus on wat I am doin. I hav a high tendency to let my mind wander while other parts of my body r working on sumting else. Tat put me pretty off guard on wat I am workin wif. So...things get slip out of my hand n I din realise it. Another thing, I hav a high tendency to rely on pple ard me. I got to learn how to b more responsible for my stuff. I cant rely on anyone.
Bottom Line:
Focus! (even though I reali hate tis word...but I got 2 admit wat he sae is rite)
Get rid off e mentality "Nevermind, its okie. I will b able to find sumone who can help me." Pick up "Wats gonna happen if no one is able to help? How can I help myself?"Impulsive-ness & bad-temper. Sumting which I find no diffculty in identifyin it n to admit it. I alwaes find difficulty controllin tis bad-temper of mine. I am oso veri impulsive. I guess u can hardly see me in a 'cool' state. Get fed up easily. Tis...I realli dunno wat to do wif it. I got to learn to sit down n look @ situation b4 I jump to a conclusion. A colleague of mine told me tat a person cant handle greater responsibilities if he is unable to handle himself.
Bottom Line:
In order to handle greater responsibilities, I got to learn to handle myself. Take a min to cool down n tink thru.I learn to complaint less. But I noe I do still complaint alot more than other pple. :( Will put in more effort. JIA YOU! To conquer e fact tat I tend to complain, instead of complaining, waste no time n find a solution to e problem.
Bottom Line:
Waste no time on complaining, finding a solution is more crucial. I guess tats all for today. I believe there is more to come. I will continue another dae. :)
PS: I noe it is a super boring post. E main purpose of tis for my review. :)
