Empty
Life is good. Definately good. Frens wise...is great. Family...no prob oso. I alwaes tot tat if I can strike a balance n a 'good' in both aspect of my life in terms of family n frens, I will b a veri happy gal. Cos it is alwaes tat one side will b 'good' n e other will b 'BAD' or 'veri BAD'. Now tat I got them both as 'good', BUT...I dun feel realli veri happy @ all. I wonder if it has got to do wif any hormones fluctuation. Or am I jus too greedy? I guess I am a greedy gal. I am feelin so empty. Whenever my frens n I part to go home, e melancholic side of me will jus appear. I hate tat side of me. I never ever tot tat I would b afraid to face loneliness. After all...being loner has alwaes been part of my life. I got so used to it. Now, I feel so needy. I hate tis. I noe I got to b more independent. :(

I planned to study tonite. AS USUAL...e plan fall thru. I cant get myself to settle down n study. E melancholic side of me keep appearing. *sounds like I got split personality!* I got so moody n sad. I cant stop feelin sad n I was unable to concentrate. Sumtimes...I tink I hav split personality. 2 different persons. Veri extreme. One is mature (thick-skin disease is here again), sounds like an aunty cos she toks like one, quiet n moody. E other is crazy, noisy, childish, needy, cheerful n cant stop laffing once she starts. One is an adult...e other is a crazy kid. Which do u prefer? I prefer to b e adult though. Makes me feel tat I got more 'brains', sound more knowledgable n makes me feel more normal. But when I am wif my frens, I cam NEVER b e adult. I feel like a crazy kid. Once I leave them, I feel like an adult all over again. Makes me feel so weird.

I did laff frm e bottom of my heart
I did smile simply cos I am happy
But still...
I feel empty
It gets more worse in e nite
Feelin aimless in life
I did set my goals
I do hav sumting to look forward to
Y do I still feel so aimless?

I wanna cry so badly
To release e tension inside
But y issit tat e tears jus dun flow?
Did sumone dig a hole in my heart?
Y do I hav tis feelin?
Tat every single feelin
Is seeping thru my heart

PS: I am sorri if I ever make ur feel tat I am veri needy. I am sorri tat I bcame more fierce on Sat.

Daniel Powter - Free Loop

I'm a little used to calling outside your name
I wont see you tonight so I can keep from going insane
But I don't know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah

I've been fabulous through to fight my town a name
I'll be stooped tomorrow if I don't leave as them both the same
But I dont know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah

Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah

And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright

I'm a little used to wandering outside the rain
You can leave me tomorrow if it suits you just the same
But I don't know enough, I need someone who leaves the day
Hey yeah

Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah

And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright

Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah

And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright

Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah

And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright

I realli love tis song. I realli like e rhythm of e chorus and e groove of e song. Not so much abt e lyrics.