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30 August 2006

Which One?
Which one?

E one which makes u happy?
E one which makes u feel tat u did e rite thing?
Over happiness or over e rite thing?
Will karma finds me one dae?
I cant seems to live out of tat dae
Every little bit of it jus replays in my head
Over n over again
I find myself smilin
To no one but myself
I wish time will freeze @ tat particular moment

I hav been tryin so hard
To curb...
E temptation
E 'miss' feelin
For 6 months...
I tried to find excuses
Till I tot I was goin mad
I tried to numb it
Tried to find new stuff
To keep my mind occupied
Nothin works...
Esp. when I am alone...

Finally...
E dae came...
But I noe it wont last
I was contented...
I was exhilarated
When I heard it
Back to resistin e tempatation
All over again...
How long can I last tis time?
It seems like...
Its gettin out of control

~ { 2:58 AM }
reflections of you and me;


27 August 2006

Determined
HA! Was tinkin abt sum stuff jus now. Heehee...was suppose to b studyin though. Bleah. I am determined to get rid of those vulgarities in my conversation. As to y I hav tis sudden tot, hmmm...long story...to summarise, changin for e better. Said one yesterdae n I am still feelin horrible till now. Not exactly a vulgarity but jus a more crude word. Sigh. I muz change! Can one...constantly check b4 u speak. I am still tryin veri hard to walk straight. Pls...help me! Scold me if I slouch! Thanks. I jus cant remember to do so constantly. :D

Will b back to update more later.

~ { 6:52 PM }
reflections of you and me;


Great Dae!
Whee! Todae is a great dae! Yeah...though I was feelin a little upset abt last nite. But e dae started out fine n it was sunny! I jus love e sight of beach n sun. WoOHoO! Oh well...I got to sae I REALI ENJOYED MYSELF. I got to emphasize tis again. Cos...e super duper blur me...happily typed "I DIN enjoy myself" when my fren asked me over e sms. OMG! I felt so bad n apologetic. Cos I reali din noe. To make things worst, I onli realised it when I got home n was lookin thru n deleting sms-es frm my hp. :P I noe I am jus damn blur lah. I am reali sorri.

Got to noe realli nice pple todae. No. 1 on e list is none other than....*drum roll* LM aka MONKEY! Tis gal ah...jus tink so much like me! I cant believe it myself. Hmmm...well, she is 15 tis yr. I cant believe I can tok to her so much n get along wif her so well. She makes me feel so NORMAL. Cos she oso veri frank n tinks tat being frank is better than beating ard e bush. I love tat. She laffs ALOT n her laughter is jus so infectious! Not only tat, she is oso veri crazy. I jus like it tis way. Heehee... She did sumting todae which makes me feel so pai seh tat I wanna bury my head in e ground. She shouted tis "U told me u come beach is to see shuai ges one mah!" Kaoz...I nearly fainted. I dun remember tellin her tat. But...all is oredi said. 1st thing...we were walkin wif R who is a guy. 2nd thing is I jus praised a few guys carryin surf boards lookin cool. One of e guys even stared @ me! OMG! Jus dun pai seh me in front of guys (in general...sum r special though). I tot I blushed. *shy*

No. 2 on e list is L (she is frm Bro QZ grp). She is realli NICE! She told me so much abt how to look after my complexion. Even brought me to The Face Shop n Watsons to show me e products. I seriously din expect tat to happen. Afterall, I jus got to noe her frm todae! Apart frm it, she was so enthusiastic abt showin me e products. I realli din expect tat either. Realli had a great time tokin to her. Makes me so tempted to buy those product. *see $$ flyin away*

No.3 on e list consistin of several pple. They r (try to guess)...e 3 guys whom I jus got to noe todae, LF, S n C. HAHA! To give a small clue abt e pple I am tokin abt...e 3 guys n C came frm Bro QZ grp. 2 of e guys were brothers...one is fren. C n 2 of e guys r klassmates. I realli dunno wat is e 3 guys names. I onli noe one is called J. I dun even noe which is e one. E 3 of them jus got suan-ed by me n monkey to e max. man. LOL! I laff like a mad woman. (as usual) I dunno which cell does S belongs to. But she was my zhuan yong de stand for e dae. I jus clicked wif her e moment I noe her. HAHA! Next is LF. I din realli get a chance to noe to her e first I met her. Got to noe her when I went for movie wif my frens. C is a quiet gal. Makes me n monkey feel so bad. Cos we tot she would feel so left out. :P I felt tat I am quite a lousy fren huh...dunno so much things abt other pple. Their names...which grp they belong to. :P There r jus too many new pple ard. I cant remember every single one. I am sorry. I jus enjoyed myself veri much.

OH! One more! B! Aiyoh...a guy who dun looks n sound like his age. He seems younger than he realli is. Hmm...jus remember one thing, he told me tat guys dun feel tat they r praised if a gal sae he looks younger than he realli is. ?_? Even though he did explained himself, I still dun quite get it. :P Heehee... As to wat I did todae, I would jus summarise it wif 2 words 'FUN' n 'FRENSHIP'! :D

My eyes r red n they r closin soon. I wanna blog abt sum other pple in my life whom I wanna thank for being there in my poly life. But I am too tired. Will blog tomolo. SO...stay tuned! :)
PS: BEWARE! E NEXT post is goin to b an emotional post! :P

I hope wat I am speculatin is not true...
I hope wat I am wishin will come true...
Bottom line: I noe I shldnt b so greedy. Life has been kind to me. I shld b sastisfied wif wat I hav now n not wanting for more.

~ { 1:47 AM }
reflections of you and me;


26 August 2006

Itchy Hands
I was feelin happy n crazy a moment ago. I am supposed to b happy n forward-lookin towards tomolo. Now...I am feelin crappy. All thanks to my curiosity. Went round surfin in Frenster. Then...I chance upon a pic. Sumhow, suddenly, my heart jus sank. Everythin seems clearer abt his nick on msn. Tokin abt being t*u**. @ tat veri moment, then I realised tat I do still hold sum feelings for him. I tot I got over it. After all, I realli enjoy his accompany. Feelin comfortable n being who I realli am. Not everyone makes u feel tis way...esp. pple frm e opp. sex.

Sigh. I am feelin blue now. I wish I dun hav to go tomolo. Cos I dun wanna give my frens a 'smelly' face. Lets hope tat I may find joy n fun tomolo. :) Will blog again after I come back frm my outing. :D

~ { 2:09 AM }
reflections of you and me;


24 August 2006

Short Update
Okie...jus a veri veri short update. It will b VERI short! Cos I am meetin 'mum' @ 9am tomolo! *looks @ e time!--> 2.38am!* *grasp* I am kinda done wif e tut n examples! FINALLY! 2 b frank...frm chapter 11 onwards...I am BLUR! Absolutely blur! Onli understood bits n pieces of it. Hence, tut n examples after tat...I cant do them. :P To b even more honest, e reason is nothin is goin into my brain anymore. I cant stop tinkin abt other stuff. Yeah...I noe I shldnt. But I cant help it. Hence, I got to consult 'mum' n try to understand them tomolo. Chapter 16 n 17?! HAHA! I realli dunno! Great! Everythin oso dunno!

Okie lah...I promise a SHORT update. Got to zzz. See YA! I promise to update more abt my 'tots' e next time. :P

~ { 2:42 AM }
reflections of you and me;


21 August 2006

Empty
Life is good. Definately good. Frens wise...is great. Family...no prob oso. I alwaes tot tat if I can strike a balance n a 'good' in both aspect of my life in terms of family n frens, I will b a veri happy gal. Cos it is alwaes tat one side will b 'good' n e other will b 'BAD' or 'veri BAD'. Now tat I got them both as 'good', BUT...I dun feel realli veri happy @ all. I wonder if it has got to do wif any hormones fluctuation. Or am I jus too greedy? I guess I am a greedy gal. I am feelin so empty. Whenever my frens n I part to go home, e melancholic side of me will jus appear. I hate tat side of me. I never ever tot tat I would b afraid to face loneliness. After all...being loner has alwaes been part of my life. I got so used to it. Now, I feel so needy. I hate tis. I noe I got to b more independent. :(

I planned to study tonite. AS USUAL...e plan fall thru. I cant get myself to settle down n study. E melancholic side of me keep appearing. *sounds like I got split personality!* I got so moody n sad. I cant stop feelin sad n I was unable to concentrate. Sumtimes...I tink I hav split personality. 2 different persons. Veri extreme. One is mature (thick-skin disease is here again), sounds like an aunty cos she toks like one, quiet n moody. E other is crazy, noisy, childish, needy, cheerful n cant stop laffing once she starts. One is an adult...e other is a crazy kid. Which do u prefer? I prefer to b e adult though. Makes me feel tat I got more 'brains', sound more knowledgable n makes me feel more normal. But when I am wif my frens, I cam NEVER b e adult. I feel like a crazy kid. Once I leave them, I feel like an adult all over again. Makes me feel so weird.

I did laff frm e bottom of my heart
I did smile simply cos I am happy
But still...
I feel empty
It gets more worse in e nite
Feelin aimless in life
I did set my goals
I do hav sumting to look forward to
Y do I still feel so aimless?

I wanna cry so badly
To release e tension inside
But y issit tat e tears jus dun flow?
Did sumone dig a hole in my heart?
Y do I hav tis feelin?
Tat every single feelin
Is seeping thru my heart


PS: I am sorri if I ever make ur feel tat I am veri needy. I am sorri tat I bcame more fierce on Sat.

Daniel Powter - Free Loop

I'm a little used to calling outside your name
I wont see you tonight so I can keep from going insane
But I don't know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah

I've been fabulous through to fight my town a name
I'll be stooped tomorrow if I don't leave as them both the same
But I dont know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah

Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah

And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright

I'm a little used to wandering outside the rain
You can leave me tomorrow if it suits you just the same
But I don't know enough, I need someone who leaves the day
Hey yeah

Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah

And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright

Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah

And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright

Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah

And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright


I realli love tis song. I realli like e rhythm of e chorus and e groove of e song. Not so much abt e lyrics.

~ { 1:50 AM }
reflections of you and me;


19 August 2006

Crazy Dae
Was out wif e gals again todae. Real crazy dae. Cos did alot of changin of clothes @ Bugis. Clothes which I will never wear n all sort of it. I felt as if I was doin fashion show. It was so tiring! I din noe changin clothes can b so tiring. O_O Did many other things too. But I shall not elaborate on them lah. Laff my heads off @ KFC. Abt e hand cruffs. My tummy was realli achin then. :P On e general, I got e clothes tat I wanna for my attachment n it was realli great hangin out wif them. Spend quite a bit todae...*a hole in e pocket*

I din noe I hav a few loyal readers to my blog. They check out my blog on a daily basis n they all uses singnet. OR...it is jus one person who is obsessed wif my blog. Visitin it every now n then. Wateva it is...jus wanna sae thanks so much for havin so much interest abt my life. DO tag IF it is possible PLS.

Hmm...signin off here...gaming time! :P

~ { 11:44 PM }
reflections of you and me;


15 August 2006

Stress over Exams
Here to rant a little. :P I need to relax! I find myself forgotten wat I studied b4 e common test for one of my modules. Dunno y...I jus cant remember a single bit of how to do it. So...gotta start frm square 1! It is realli freakin me out. Relax!!! I am damn stressed out. Can feel my whole body muscles in a 'fight or flight' mode. Mayb it is due to e fact tat I wanna get an 'A' for tis module. Hence...I told myself I MUZ do well. Givin myself stress as a result. I noe I got to score better...cos I onli got a 'B' now. I noe I can push it to an 'A'. Cant let myself die in tis sem...last sem liao. Muz do well!

My frens keep askin me y am I so stress up?! I looked stress to them. (tats wat they sae) I tink it got to do wif e amt of stress I am givin myself. I noe I am a person who has veri high expectations of herself. :P I mayb lenient to others in terms of their failure...but not to myself. Cos I noe I can do better than tat...I jus need to push myself abit more. Then it jus gets abit more n more n more...LOL! Never sastisfied...4eva hungry for better performance. Sumtimes...I asked myself, issit bcos tat I hardly get praised no matter how well I performed which leads to e never dying thirst for better performance? Hopin to get praised by e rite pple eventually?! I dunno. Mayb.

Alot of tots came across my mind these daes. Relationships...frenships...all kinds of ships...might hav titanic ship oso! *lame* Who r worthy to b kept as frens? Who r meant to b jus acquaintance? <-- I tink I got e wrong spelling...who cares? Guys...men...do they matter? *smack forehead* My frens sae I like guys who can protect me. HAHA. I guess so...so tat I wont b hurt or brave thru horrible experiences in life anymore. I got enoff of them to write a novel. I jus wanna take a long long break frm all these.

Frens...ha! Pple hav been tokin bt tis particular frenship of mine. I noe I noe...everyone hopes to see improvement between me n her. But it jus tat I find myself hard to believe in wateva thing she sae anymore. I got to sae I am pessimistic abt wat she sae...but every time...it jus turns out as I wat expected it to b. No surprises. I am feelin sick of it. I hear myself screamin "Enoff" in my head whenever pple try to tok to me abt her. Jus let me b...for e time being. I am tired. I alwaes believe in one thing...if it is meant to turn out better, time will tell. Let time show me n tell me.

I may look fine to u...
Tats bcos I try to cover tat wound wif gauze...
I am not as strong as u tink I am...
I hope sumone can heal tat wound in me...
A wound tat has been there for yrs...
It feels like a nitemare...
I cant walk out of it...
I feel trapped...
I hope to find sumone who I trust n feel close enoff to share e other side of me
To share my sorrows n lead me out e darkness
To lend me a shoulder to lean on n cry on

~ { 2:38 AM }
reflections of you and me;


13 August 2006

Gals Dae
Went out wif 'mum' n crazy todae. We went to watch "My Super Ex-GF". Hmm...a great movie I would sae. Cos it din leaves me feelin puzzled. I understood e entire movie. Not like e previous one...pirates of e carribean. Tat one was blur in e beginnin n @ e end. LOL!

Went to watch e fireworks after tat. WooHoO! It was great! I felt like a little gal once again. Was so happy n nearly wanna scream! But I was afraid tat I would scare 'mum' off! :P So...I tried not to. It was jus like seeing meteor rain! I remember tellin 'mum' tis...I would marry a guy if he proposes me under e fireworks. Haha...dun tink it is easy! Cos fireworks r like damn ex! So he muz b RICH ah! :P

Was tokin wif them abt alot of stuff...guys...frens...wat else can gals tok abt when they gather?! Lolx. But sumting realli struck me hard. Leaves me tinking. Give me sum time. Oh well...its abt frenship. Haiz...crazy asked me tis qn: Wat kind of explaination r u waitin for? I tot I noe wat I wanna. But in fact, I dun. I DUNNO! <-- tats my reply. Hmm...I will jus do wat 'mum' said. But it takes a little bit of time...tats me. I took e first step. Lets jus see how it goes.

One BIG thing to share!!! I am OFFICIALLY DONE wif my FYP! WOOHOO! It is realli FINALLY AH! Even done wif e presentation. I noe I screwed it up. Pui! I jus hate presentations lah. I get stage fright like mad. I cant help feelin nervous. Bleahx!

Wats left for now is...EXAMS! I will breeze thru it...I believe! I believe I can FLY! LOL! Damn tired...see ya!

~ { 1:27 AM }
reflections of you and me;


11 August 2006

Woman?!
Physical Properties:
1) Surface usually covered in painted film.
2) Boils at nothing; freezes without known reason.
3) Melts if given special treatment.
4) Bitter if incorrectly used.
5) Found in various states from virgin metal to common ore.
6) Yields if pressure applied in correct places.

Chemical Properties:
1) Has great affinity for gold, silver and a range of precious stones.
2) Absorbs great quantities of expensive substances.
3) May explode spontaneously without prior warning and for no known reason.
4) Insoluble in liquids, but activity increases greatly by saturation in alcohol.
5) Most powerful money reducing agent known to man.

Common Uses:
1) Highly ornamental, especially in sports cars.
2) Can be a great aid to relaxation.
3) Very effective cleaning agent.

Tests:
1) Pure specimen turns rosy pink when discovered in the natural state.
2) Turns green when placed beside a better specimen.

Hazards:
1) Highly dangerous except in experienced hands.
2) Illegal to possess more than one, although several can be maintained at different locations as long as specimens do not come into direct contact with each other.
3) Should you experience itching, burning or rash, discontinue use immediately and seek medical treatment.

LOL! I find tis damn interesting n FUNNY! I tot sum of them r damn true....but it was put thru in a funnier way! :P

~ { 11:18 PM }
reflections of you and me;


07 August 2006

One More 2 Go!
Jus one more round to go b4 I wave a final goodbye to my FYP. Tats none other than presentation. Abit nervous abt it...cos I sux @ presentations. I will eat words...yeah...too hungry. :P I cant tink oso! GRR!

Other than tat...its e EXAMS! OMG! Out of 3 modules...I am onli confident to do one...other 2 is like crap. I noe one of them...is jus purely memorising. But I cant memorise stuff for nuts. I jus screw it up. If ONLI...JY teaches me how she memorises...her powerful ways...WAHAHAHA!

Next up is ATTACHMENT! Heehee...I oredi noe who is goin attachment wif me liao. Cos I got into e company I went for interview. 4 of us. I am thankful tat all e other 3 pple r not 'eeeky' pple. PHEW! Cant imagine if I kena any 'eeeky' pple. *pui* I will realli curse n swear. Cos tis attachment is oredi not my 1st choice liao. I wanna go overseas after all...but I missed it jus a little due to pple pullin @ e LAST MIN! GRR! (one of e person is goin to e same company as I am now...GRR!) It seems like it is fated tat I am suppose to stay in local...I wonder wats in stored for me. Would it b better to stay in local? How issit so? We'll see.
PS:I jus hope e 4 of us will enjoy our stay @ SP.

I muz sae tat tis sem is realli 10 times much more smooth sailing than other sems. Even though I din realli got wat I wanna everytime, I muz sae tat e outcome of it isnt tat bad. Attachment pple r fine...tats a GREAT relief! Imagine being stuck wif pple u dun like for half a yr! Seeing e person 5 daes a week. I tink I will die...life is jus like HELL. I remembered how hard I prayed during my holidaes for my FYP mates...jus ONE smooth sailin sem b4 I graduate...my attachment mates...my OIAP... Out of so many...I muz sae most of it is fulfilled. I cant hiam anymore. :P I am realli sastisfied. Ku jing gan lai de ri zi.

Another thing I prayed for...my lab mates. Heehee... I remember how anxious I was when e pple in my klass was groupin us in e lect hall. I remember how tat ***** sae she din wanna me in her grp. Btw...it is jus e same sentiments! I din wanna oso! I was lookin ard n was hopin tat I can get into JY's grp. Even though I din realli noe who is in her grp @ tat time...but sumting jus tells me tat I can work wif her. *pray pray pray* After all...she left me a good impression @ CPTC when I first tok to her. :P Ha! Its jus so amazin how things evolved thru e entire sem...how everythin I prayed for turned out fine. I am truly happy! :D

Off to lunch...see ya! Dun miss Aunty Gan Cheong Spider here! :P

~ { 1:22 PM }
reflections of you and me;


05 August 2006

Untitled
Finally! I manage to catch up wif my sleep n we handed up our report! :P Hmmm...headache still. But feelin much better now. I hope it will get better as I sleep more n more. Heehee... Suddenly...I wanna b havoc gal. :P I jus wanna b wild for one dae. Jus one dae! Let go of all e restrictions I hav for myself...n e expectations others hav for me. Found a damn nice red wine in my house. Tasted it when mum pour some to drink. Damn nice...I tink tats e best I hav tasted other than Vodka Blueberry.

Dunno wat to blog... Hmmm...exams comin soon...but I realli lazy to start studyin. I feel relaxed now. Like my exams n projects r ALL OVER! Finally...my 3yr old worry is over. Tats none other than FYP. Cos I alwaes worry abt who in e world am I goin to work wif. (given e circumstances tat I was in when I was in yr 1) Crazy period...but I bet it is e most memorable part of poly life. How everyone bond together due to one project...how everyone helped each other...how ur chiong in e nite w/o sleep... Heehee...

I will load e pics of my FYP report soon! Cos now...not @ home. Now @ my aunt's house. Nothin in mind to blog...be back soon! See ya!

PS: I HATE to admit tis. But I muz sae tat my skool life is great bcos of UR! :P Ur noe who ur r lah...yah lah...yeah...e 4 of ur. (3gals + 1 onli guy) *imagine e thick-skinned + naggy gal actin cute* LOL! Yeah yeah yeah...

~ { 11:46 PM }
reflections of you and me;


03 August 2006

I noe I shldnt
I noe I shldnt tink abt it
Not even a single bit
I cant help it
Teach me...how to 4get
How 2 b numb to those feelings
I cant reveal it
Yet, it is exposin itself soon
I am missin ya.

I tot I will NEVER find anyone tat is like *HIM*
E special 'factor' I was lookin for
I am jus too naive.
I found one...but...
Y let me noe him?
I dun see e reason behind it...
It jus makes me lose control over my feelings
I hate tis feeling
I realli yearn to see him again

~ { 3:40 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Almost Done
WoOHoO! My grp is done wif e report! All I can sae is I hav NEVER work so hard b4. I can literally feel my head splittin. It hurts like mad...due to e lack of sleep lah. We rushed like mad...like sum crazy fellows. Slept like less than 5hrs each dae for e past few daes liao.

There is tis thing which I find it REAL funny abt my fyp grp. E 3 of us seems like snatchin work frm each other. We seems like we r afraid we got nothin to do. LOL! Or @ least...tats how it feels like to me. Sumhow, I feel tat I din do much. :P Even if I did, I keep havin tis feelin tat I din do my best. I would sae I did my best in e theory part...but efficiency wise...errr...I dun tink I am fast enoff. Rather...I tend to slack abit in between. Heehee... *ponders*

Not much time b4 we head off to exams...then off we move on to different routes in life. :( Makes me wanna go on studyin. I cant believe I am sayin tis...since I alwaes hate to study. :P Hahah...

If I hav e ability to freeze time...I would freeze it NOW! Even though it is damn tough to tide thru tis period of crazy chionging over report, I muz sae we hav fun in between. Those silly jokes...like my head is being taken as a place of landin for e insect! I alwaes believe tat relationships will onli get better n grow stronger when ur tide over e crisis together. E feeling is SUCH A RELIEF! Yupz...we jus tide over e crisis of tis report together. Whee! :D

Changes occurs wif time...I dunno wat changes r goin to take place after exams is over. I jus wanna sae...I realli enjoyed myself everydae goin to skool. :D

~ { 3:31 AM }
reflections of you and me;


02 August 2006

Relationship
Wanna blog tis tot of mine...wont b too long. Cos 'MUM' will ask me to do PED. Boooo... Was doin the legend of e P&ID. Yeah...I love to draw usin AutoCAD. :P Sense of sastisfaction when I finish it. Neat...nice...perfect in my eyes. :D

Relationship...I used to wonder wat do we use to build it up. Trust? Tats wat I was told. Sumhow...I am gettin veri distorted imagine of this topic. Wat is e REAL ingredient tat makes a relationship on-going? I am not tokin abt BGR. But relationships in general...with frens...with family... I am so tired of all these relationship thingy tat is goin on in my life. On one side, I am a happy gal who cant seems to stop laffing n smiling. Yeah...tats me in skool ONLI. On e other side, I am jus a plain gal who wanna help e pple whom meant hell lots to me. I lost contact wif many pple due to the horrible schedule I hav to keep to everydae. I tried multi-taskin...keepin in contact wif other pple thru msn n doin work altogether. BUT...it failed. I am gettin response like "I brb" but I noe e person will NEVER tok to me again. When I bother to show concern, I got shun off by comments like "Nothin lah". Can u dun entertain me for e sake of it? Tis is realli disheartening. I dun eat n bite. I jus wanna noe more abt ur life n hope it has been smooth sailing. Or...lendin tat ear for u to rant. I noe how good it feels after ranting. I do tat often enoff to noe e feeling. I feel so detached frm e outside world. When was e last time I hit town to shop? Not too long ago...but I din realli shop...I left after I got wat I wanna.

How it feels to me is...I am no longer of 'use' to tat person anymore. Hence, no more keepin in contact...no more askin of 'how r u?'. Everythin jus stops there. Full stop. How nice. R pple realli tat realistic when it comes to relationships? U build a close relationship cos u need it...u need wat e person has to offer. If u look @ it @ a different angle, indeed, it seems like it. Y do u ask ur fren out for a shoppin trip? Issit bcos u realli miss ur fren...shoppin was jus an excuse? OR cos u wanna sumone to accompany u or give comments on the items u r shoppin for? How often do u do e first one? How often do u do e second one? Ha... E later one has e 'use' meaning in it, isnt it? U wanna use e presence of e person as an accompany. U wanna use e opinions e person has to offer to help u judge.

Time to zzz...YAWNZ!

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