Losing Control
I am losing control of myself. In e dae...it is perfectly alrite. It onli strikes in e nite. Esp. when I am all alone. I wanna tok so much abt it. Yet, I cant find sumone to do so. (due to sum restrictions) My best listener has jus gone NS a few daes ago. Screw tis stupid system. Sigh. Told myself to try not to bother him too much one. CONTROL! So I got no choice but to blog it down. Yet, I got to write it in such a way tat pple dun understand wat I am drivin @. Grr! I cant even mention any names. Google search is gettin too powerful. My lecturer jus told us he reads his student's blog. OMG! I hope he dun chance upon mine. I guess I control myself too much. Givin myself too many restrictions. Stressin myself out as a result. I hav been keep myself in control for e past 1+ week. It gets real bad sum times. I wanna it so much...yet I fear of e complications. AHH! I crave for a drink. Long time since I last drank. Anyone interested to go n drink n 4get sum tings for e time being? :P (Not clubbin...but sumting like pubbing OR sittin @ one corner n gettin drunk)

Sad news again. Sigh. Can sad news dun come for e time being? I need to pick myself up b4 I fall again. E wounds arent healed yet. I am jus tryin to put lots n lots of foundations n concealers on top of it. But benneath it, it is still raw. Appearance VS Reality. Ha! I am tryin hard to cover it...but who realli noes wat is goin deep inside me? I need a key in my life to bring me outta tis n bring me back to e chat non-stop gal. I miss myself in tat way. Life is more happy...I miss e feelin of chattin non-stop. AHH!

When will a bus comes along n stop by @ e bus stop? E pple @ e bus stop is gettin impatient. Real impatient. E pple r screamin n yelling for e bus. Stupid bus.

PS: Sorri for e never endin rant n rant n more rants! I jus need to let it out. :)