Wat I Wanna
Happiness is sumting everyone yearn for. It is e same for me. Many pple sae tat they r happy when they receive wat they wanna. It is also e same for me. As I was preparing for my exams, I set aside sum time to ponder over sum stuff. These problems hav been there for sum time. I find myself sayin "I dunno" n "I tink" veri often. Tats not e way to solving my problems. I would sae those r jus excuses I gave myself to run away from my problems. Everyone seeks for happiness. I seek for it too. I asked myself how can I attain it. I gotta noe wat I wanna in Life to work on it. As I ponder harder, I went on to search for my deepest desire. I alwaes wanted to b in e accompany of frens. At least, in that way, I would not feel lonely. I dream of havin a bf. Sumone who will lend me his strong n sturdy shoulder to lean on as I travels. Sumone who will hold my hand wif his strong hand as we cross e roads. E sense of security n knowin tat his hand will b there to guide me across e road. I do not hav to worry abt e on-comin cars cos I noe tat his hand will protect me. I bet all these sounds temptin to any gals outta.

E most impt qn is...do I realli wanna all these? I tot I wanna them badly. I tot they will b able to fill tat emptyness in me. They r all wat I assumed. E fact is wat I realli wanna seems a far cry from wat I assumed them to be. I tot I wanna a bf and a big grp of frens. E fact is I am so used to being alone. I feel weird when I travel wif sumone else n feel e 'silence' between us. I wanna tok to whoever that person is. I duno how to start one cos I am jus so used to travellin alone. I tot I would like community life n would enjoy it alot. I realised tat I dun realli like it afterall. I din enjoy myself as much as I tot I shld hav been. I tot I would like my frens to seek for my attention. I feel frustrated when my frens seeks for tat constant attention frm me. All things din turn out e way I tot it would b. I tot I would like to hav fren wif me on a shoppin trip. I jus came back from one alone. I find myself enjoyin shoppin alone more. I tot I wanna a bf to care n share wif me. Yet, there is one thing I find tat I cant seems to give him. Tat is none other than my time n attention. I am afraid to commit myself to sumting. If this is e case, I will never b a good partner. After much thinkin, I come to a conclusion tat I dun need a bf n I am actualli happier being single than attached. :)

Many of us hav a criteria for their partners in Life. Or rather a criteria for their bf/gf. Our criteria changes over time. When we were younger, our crtieria r based on fairy tales. Many of us dream to hav a prince charming / princess-like lady. As we grow up, we realise tat pple r not perfect. Those stories tat accompanied us thru our growin yrs r not true. Those characters displayed in those stories r pple who dun exist in our reality. Not only tat, sum of us learnt tat looks r not everythin. E inner beauty plays a more important role. Sumone who appear beautiful on e outside but not on e inside is not wat one will want. We started to change our criteria. Our criteria list starts to hav qualities like generous, caring, totful n etc. I am no different frm e others. My list jus goes on n on. Yrs down e road, if u r still single n pple ard u starts to get married, u will realise tat ur criteria starts to change again. Pple who we like may not b e pple who we can get along wif. U will wanna find sumone who can live wif u for e rest of ur life. There is a poem tat I hav heard of. There r 4 pple whom u will meet in Life. 1: Urself. 2: E person u like most in ur Life. 3: E person who likes u most in ur Life. 4: E person who is married wif u. Sumhow in a way or another, these 4 pple r 4 different pple. Everyone looks for "E ONE" in their life. Who is ur "E ONE"? Muz he/she hav e criteria u set for ur bf/gf? I guess most of our answer is YES! However, e person whom we eventually settle down wif is a far cry frm our criteria. Tis is bcos e person who can live wif u might not b e type which u will like. E endless search for "E ONE" leaves many pple feelin weary. Y not start to consider who e ones u can live wif rather than who r e ones u will like?

My criteria took a change. Even though I am happy being single now, I never noe when "E ONE" in my life will appear. As I dun wanna miss e opportunity of meetin him, e onli way is to noe wat kind of pple I can live. :) Wat abt u? ;)

PS: Do tell me IF my england does improve over time. THANKS! :D