Changes
Its funny how changes can take place in our lives. Sum jus take place naturally under e influence of e pple ard u. Sum changes occur bcos u r "forced" to change. Situations in life n pple "forces" u to change. Hav u met sumone who "forces" u to change?

Being influenced n being "forced" to change is different. Oh well...being influenced means u changed wif a willing heart. U jus change w/o even knowin tat u did. Being "forced" is different. U struggle n "fight" it out wif e party who "forces" u to change. I hav my fair share of being "forced" and being influenced to change.

As I was watchin my fav show, sumting jus hit me. Tat show brings back lots n lots of memories. Those crazy daes of my life. Those daes makes me wonder if tats e real me. A side of myself tat I din discover it all these yrs. It makes me feel plain crazy. I dunno how come I will actually do those stuff. Its jus so not me. Mayb it is also part of me. A part of me tat will onli appear wif e rite pple. I dunno if I shld thank those 2 guys or to smack them. Those daes were crazy yet memorable. Thanks to one of them, my sec skool life seems more colourful n it leaves me missin my sec skool life. If not, most probably there is nothin memorable abt my sec skool life. Its jus plain boring. Not onli tat, it was oso bcos of these 2 guys tat I did change. I changed frm a studious student to a lazy bum to big time slacker. I oso changed frm sumone who will never whack a guy to sumone who whacks one almost on a daily basis. There are more changes tat took place. I guess those 2 changes sounds like bad ones. Upon lookin back, if these changes din take place, I might not hav e share of "fun". It was realli "FUN"! I might not hav understand wat it means to slack during sec skool daes. I might hav understand wat it means to skip lessons n run out of lect hall in e middle of a lecture. I guess everyone understands wat it means but how it feels is sumting u will onli understnd after u gone thru it. Such stuff will not b there foreva. I am thankful I tried them. U can never skip a lecture after u go out to work cos there is no more lectures. U can never understand wat it means to slack n cheat in a test after sec skool daes. Cos e chances of successful attempts r slim. These r jus e more prominent changes. Thanks for those horrible yet memorable memories.

I was kinda being "forced" to change under those weird ways n character of those 2 guys. Characters which u jus cant seems to comprehend. They r jus weird. There r positive changes too. But I realli struggled n fight dae in dae out wif e guy. It is amazing how obedient I can get @ times. I am astonished myself. Thanks again for those tortures. They did make me grow in a weird way though.

I am startin to regret over a statement I made. I wonder if I din sae anythin back then, would things turn out better than now? Would life b different? If I sae e opp. of wat I did, would I still stay in those crazy daes? Would I? Thanks to my impulsiveness. BAKA! But it might hav been a joke. Would anyone crack e same joke over n over again? Issit realli tat fun to crack a joke over ur feelings? I cant seems to differentiate e rite frm e wrong.

Shld I try to find back e frenship? I muz b mad. It muz b due to e show. Tats y I am so mad now. I dun wanna lose certain frenship when I graduate in 1 yr time. They r memorable. I dun wanna regret like how I did in my sec skool daes. I din put in effort to keepin contact wif tat bully. I am losing one soon...realli a great fren to hav. Sumone who will listen to all my crap. Will I b able to salvage it? I am hopin I can. I seriously dun wanna lose tat fren. Tat fren is one which I never wanna lose in my whole life. All e help he gave me thru these 2 yrs...all e shit I gave him...I appreciate them n feel sorri @ e same time. I feel tat I owe him a whole lot of it. E no. of times he helped me can never b compared to e times I helped him. It is jus too little. E no. of troubles I gave him...is jus way too much. I cant find a time tat I can meet up wif him again. I hope for a opportunity. Thanks for being there to listen to me when I jus need a listenin ear. U alwaes sae sorri tat u cant help me. Actualli I din wanna any help frm ya, I jus need a listenin ear. But I tink u helped me more than I hav helped u. I am sorri I gave u too much shit.