Time 2 Wake up
Phew! I am thankful for one thing tat scares me yet...it serves as a reminder to me. Tats when I was tokin to WL, she mentioned abt exams n stuff. Then...I realised...MY EXAMS R JUS 3 WEEKS AWAY! OMG! I was like huh?! SO fast?! Die...I still in my happy land...happily enjoyin myself. Indulge in e show I am crazy over. Time to wake up liao. Cant watch e show anymore. Kinda sad. :( Cos...

Tat show is my motivation now. :P Yeah...I am motivated to reach home asap everydae to catch e show. Haha... I am so HOOKED to e show. It is SO addictive. As bad a cigarette. Cos my results is headin in e down direction...cigarette leads to ur health instead. Aww...I need to find a new passion to hook me on so tat I will b motivated to study. I feel so reluctant to sleep or study...I jus wanna sit there n watch e show e whole dae. Doin nothin else. Serious. Bad bad bad... Mayb...I can use tis show as e motivation to study hard. If I do well...I will get e VCDs of either tis show OR e other one which I was oso hoooked on e other time. Then after every 2 hrs, I get to watch one episode of e show. WHEE! Sounds good? 1 espisode = 1hr. Haha... But...still not too good...cos I noe myself veri well...I wont STOP! :P Will tink of other ways.

Its pretty weird how my perception of stuff took a change these daes. It no longer attracts me anymore. I am tired. It drains me out...physically, mentally and emotionally. I feel much much better wif wat I am pursuin now. Hmmm...funny to me. *scratch head* I tink I will jus leave it as it is. Cant b bothered wif it anymore. I guess I will b happier tis way. :D I oso dunno y it jus took a change. Haiz...I jus hope tat B@bymentos n I can tide thru tis. We both facin e same shit again.

Mayb idolising isnt tat bad. I am so hooked. I jus got hook on it. It is good cos no hurt...no pain...no disappointment...no $$ spend...(cos I noe myself too well...I wont go to e extend of buyin concert ticks n cds...LOL!) Wat else? I dunno. But tats enoff for me currently. I tink e last ting tat realli matters to me more is...u can end it asap. No conflicts. No pain...simple. Wahaha...

Frens who noe abt my life in greater detail alwaes sae my life is interestin. Cos like drama loh...like Zhen Qing like tat. Involve alot of pple...conflicting stuff here n there. Be it frenship...kinship...relationship...loveship?! Got such a ship? or rather Titanic better lah! To me, headache ah! I jus see knots here n there. Untangle one...another one comes along. :( Pple tend to sae havin a busy schedule = meaningful life. To me...no leh. I had abt 2 weeks of crazy rush. I din find my life meaningful. When I told sumone my life is a mad rush, she told me...good lah, purposeful loh. HUH?! To me...NO! I feel so dread over it. I hate tis mad rush...I dun find it meaningful @ all! I find shoppin wif anyone...along e shoppin trip, I get to noe e person better...more meaningful! Rather than rushin here n there, dun even noe y u r rushin n wat u r rushin for. *shrugs*

Okie lah...got my wake up call. Time to chiong studies. See ya!