I lost 2 things
Yupz...I lost 2 things. They r my heart n my mind. I hav never felt tis way b4. Never...I am veri sure. I wonder y e change tis time. Sigh. I lost my heart n mind over a show. -.-" Yeah...practically crazy over e show. I hav never gone SO crazy. B@bymentos noes it best. Cos I alwaes grumble to her tat I cant watch e show n got to do work. Causin me feelin irritated. I nearly wanna buy a VCD of a concert of e male lead in e show. Cos it is onli $9.90! Super cheap lah! OMG! All his fault...makin me losin myself. I am losin control of myself. I hate tis feelin. Its scary. E consequences to pay is high too. As I hav said b4, when e show ends, my craziness ends too! But...tis one...dun seems like e case. :( I will not go crazy to e extend of buyin stuff...cos I am a PIRATE! Haha... But tis time...I even comtemplated to buy one. Tis is bad man. I hav a fren who loves to chase idols n spend all e $$ she earned on buyin VCDs n stuff. On my side, I prefer to spend e $$ earned on myself. :D But now, I am no longer sure anymore. I forsee myself headin my fren's direction. Mayb one dae, we'll chase idol together...but different idols...cos different taste! LOL! :( Help!!!
I seriously dunno wat issit tat makes me so attracted. Tokin abt looks...he is jus not e type I would go for. Tokin abt body...eh...tis one hor, I got nothin to sae sia. His body is...errmm...u noe...O_O Gorgeous is e word ba. :P Hmmm...but I tink e main thing is tat e plot of e show. E characteristics tat those main leads displays. Esp. e male lead. Both e female n male leads quarrels like no one's business. They never seems to agree on ANYTHIN! Yeah...tis reminds me of a part of my life. I been thru tat. Twice. Well...mayb bcos of tat + I am being bo liao for e time being, I am missin those daes. Yupz...I noe its BIAN TAI! Over time...I am trained to b one due to e pple I am exposed to. Sigh. I miss those arguin daes whereby I noe no matter how bad e arguement turns out to b...our frenship will never b affected. Frm e biggest prob to e duh-est prob...we jus argue. Over nitty gritty stuff like jus a comment. LOL! I realli tink I am jus too bored wif my life lah...tats y like tat. Though there r problems in my life waiting for me to solve, there r probs which u hav no control over. I cant b bothered wif it. I am jus sick of tryin to solve. Let it b tat way. I need a break. A fren of mine once told me tis --> "Y bother to tink over sumting which u hav no control over?" I felt tat he makes sum sense lah. Since u cant hav control over it...u could onli hope n pray tat it will turn out good! Well...there r such probs! If u tink hard enoff...u would noe wat I am tokin abt. :P
I wanna so much to watch e show now. BUT...I noe I cant. CONTROL! I got to control. If I lose control...I noe veri well tat I will b grumblin away over my work again. :P Work is waitin for me. :( I will definately chiong e show after my exams! Jus hope tat they will continue broadcastin it. PLS! If not...I will need to pocket out my $$ to buy VCDS liao. :'( I am jus obsessed wif it lah. I wanna everythin related to e show. I love everythin abt it. E theme song drive me mad. E show makes me eccentric. Sum espisodes makes me wanna jump into e show n b e female lead. Enjoyin e pamper tat e guy offers. Sum espisodes makes me wish tat my tear glands would work...so tat I might feel better after e cry. Sum espisodes...comprises of both. So...@ one time, I am laffing my heads off...e next moment, I am cryin like mad. HAHA! Madness!
Okie...time to do project. ARGH! Wat a dae! Its FRIDAE! I shld b party-ing (not clubbin btw) or playin my hearts out. Or jus simply...rotting. :( CHIONG AH! I hope tat I can chiong finish everythin asap. :) Wish me luck for tat. I am screwin up my tests these daes. :( All e best to those preparin exams outta! Enjoy chiong-ing! LOL! See ya! ;)