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Back once again. Din realli manage to blog everythin tat I wanna sae on e previous post. Cos was feelin emotional...so din hav e mood to continue. So I shall continue wif my borin story n abit of wat I wanna share so badly. HAHA! Here goes...

Oh well...I met my gor @ e MRT e other dae. Was so happy to see him once again. Been a long long time ever since I last met him. Donkey yrs sia. He is a busy man afterall. Workin now...goin NS in April. Though we jus had a small tok, it brings me back fond memories of times whereby my gang of frens n I do nothin all dae but play play play. It kinda brighten up my mood. I was feelin so sian @ first...cos I was feelin hungry. Wahahah...

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HAHA! E message I wanna share todae is not originated frm me. I heard it frm R while he was havin a chat wif B @ e food court e other dae. I was impressed wif wat he had shared. LOL! Cos pple of my age...sad to sae, e majority dun tink tat much. I tot it was veri true n makes sense. He sort of knock some sense into me although e message wasnt directly addressed to me. But I learnt sum veri true n meaningful stuff. Tis is not e entire message during e entire chat. Cos I din realli pay attention...on n off. :P Was tokin to my fren n figurin wat he was tryin to tell me. Haha... SO...here I am to nag nag nag. I oso shared tis message to someone whom I tot would need it. Cos she was in pile after pile of shit. :P

Okie...I shall go straight to e point. :) As we grow up, we need to learn to b more responsible abt our actions. E signals we send to e opp. sex party. Sumtimes...we jus got to b more careful. So tat we wont hav a grp of them havin feelings for us. Also...u wont feel so vexed over e grp of suitors. HAHA! Of cos there r times in which we din do anythin...but e person jus hav feelings for ya. Tats bo bian lah. But sumtimes...it is bcos we lead them on. We send out e wrong signals. In another words...we flirt ard. Hence...it brings abt e troubles. Do consider tis! I seriously tink we all shld tink abt tis... --> Many of us tot tat havin a lot of suitors feels damn good sia. Or rather flirtin ard feels shiok...cos veri fun mah. But we din actually tink abt e fact...wat kind of impression we r givin to pple ard us? I din tink abt tis b4 too. I tot flirtin was fun. Sigh. *guilty party* Can u imagine wat kind of impression u r givin to e gal/guy whom u met? E gal/guy whom u wanna to b wif so badly? As gals...we seek for a guy whom is not flirty. Cos we dun wanna to b jealous over his flirty moves. It sure dun feel good @ all. Hence...we look for sumone who is not a big flirt if u r tokin abt husband/bf lah. Now...place urself in a guy's shoes...of cos they will wanna e same thing. Cos they r human oso...they hav brains to tink oso. They fear e same thing too! Jus a diff sex nia. LOL! So...if u tink u r attractin e opp. sex wif ur flirty moves, tink again. I tink u r scarin them off. Even if they appear to b flirtin wif ya, they r jus playin wif ya. U r most likely not goin to b considered in their potential gf/wife list n vice versa. Sounds true? Hard true fact to u? Even if they r true to ya, he/she might b oso a big flirt. Afterall...as e sayin goes... Birds of the same feather flock together. Dun u tink so? HAHA... So...if u wanna a goodie guy/gal, start being one urself. Heehee... I am not sayin u cant flirt @ all...but do it to e rite pple. Do it n mean it. Dun everywhere oso flirt. LOL!

PS: I sort of rephrase it. I hope e points r still there. E points shared r not entirely wat he sae...I added my part in too! HAHA!

After tat chat, I am more careful wif wat signals I am sendin out. It is scary to tink tat way. I dun wanna leave a bad impression. Impressions r impt. Isnt it? First impression counts. I dun wanna scare a guy off whom I might b interested over time after knowin him more n more. Makes sense?! Haha...I am wonderin if I am makin sense now. Well...cos u never noe whom u might b interested in over time. :P

Was tokin abt goin to KL to makan durin dinner. Haha...since I still hav sum riggit left to spend. Then as we were tokin...we realised tat it would b safer if a guy can come along. (2 ladies + 1 auntie tokin away) Sumhow...in tis current modern world...e 'guys r more strong / superior' mentality is still ard. -.-" So...I jus jokingly sae..."Aiyah...jus wait till I get a BF first...then jio him along loh. But ur got to wait until veri veri long...mayb ur hair might hav change colour by then. Hahaha..." Yupz. As we carried on our conversation...little did I realised tat pple ard me ALL tot I am 18 TIS YR! I mean...almost everyone wishes me Happy 18th Birthdae e other dae! *pengz* Sum got it correct cos we r of e same age or cos I corrected them. Haiz...time jus flies b4 they noe I am actualli 19 tis yr. :( We went on tokin abt BFs. As I tot thru it after dinner...I was askin myself. Y in e world did I suddenly tok abt BF? O_O Okie...tats aside. E conversation abt BF jus shocked me how time flies b4 my eyes. I was still happily tinkin tat I shall let myself NUA abit more b4 I go on a hunt for one. When I exclaimed tat I am 19 tis yr, it jus scares me how close I am to 20! AH~! I alwaes tot tat once I am 20, I shld u noe...get ready to look for a 'potential husband to b'. Now...I am oredi 19...sigh. I cant let myself NUA anymore...n happily tink tat I can jus b oblivious to e presence of e opp. sex. Sum time back...I was still tinkin...HAHA! I shall not find myself a BF soon...cos I dun wanna b burden wif e commitments n e fact tat if e one I choose is a wrong one...comes into my life n makes things worst! Afterall...havin an opp. sex party in ur life as a partner can onli lead to 2 results. One...brings u never endin happiness...makes ur life seems so great like heaven. Probs in ur life...jus diminishes wif his/her presence. Another is...e party jus bring u to hav a taste of wat is hell. Tears is wat u use to wash ur face everydae early in e morning. (due to e cryin session e previous nite) Now...I got to tink twice. I dun wanna b desperately lookin for one. But...I cant let myself nua either. GRR! I hate growin up! One or two yrs down e road...I foresee my parents will come hauntin me wif e qn...'When r u goin to bring a guy for us to see?!' OH MAN! Jus kill me lah! I am happily enjoyin my life now n absolutely hav no wish to let any guy step into my life n screw it up UNLESS I tink I met e rite one. (absolutely no confidence...:( Due to e horrifyin stories goin ard me. Sigh)

I still remember when I was much younger, havin a BF ---> tis tot sounds totally temptin. NOW...errrr... Another story. Watchin shows...jus reminds me tat in real life, e possibility of hittin wat is shown on tv or fairy tales is 0.000000000000000001% or even lesser. Incidents in shows jus scares me. I am so afraid to invest my feelings in sumone. Afterall...everyone oso starts out wif e tot tat e person is rite one. Onli after sum time...then they came to realise...erm...not correct ah! Then how? U oredi invested in liao...wanna retreat...got so easy meh? Haiz... Haha...I wont sae I dun hav anyone in mind. But...havin sumone in ur mind n havin sumone in ur life is totally 2 diff matter. When I was younger...I used to tink tat havin sumone in ur mind n havin sumone in ur life is almost e same. Cos it is jus so easy to imagine him in ur life. Goodie sia...happy n smiles all dae. But I left out e fact tat everyone has flaws. To like sumone's strength is super easy. To tolerate sumone's flaw is not easy. Is tis wat it means to sae u hav grown up? Makin stuff seems more complicated than it is?

Am I tinkin too much again?! I am doubtin myself again. :(

Pple ard me starts to ask me tis qn. U dun put make-up one ah?! Errr... Sumone jus told me sumting --> U shld put start tryin to put make-up. Cos it is veri common for pple of ur age to put make-up. Many of them r doin it. U look more presentable too. DAMN! It totally sounds like a wake up call for me! To b frank, I jus hate make-up lah. To me...make-up = costly = mafan oso! Cosmetics r not cheap lah...jus look @ e price of jus a foundation. O_O Summore so many different types of cosmetics. Jus foundation alone...oredi got 2 way foundation...liquid foundation...powder foundation...on n on n on. E terms jus makes my head spins. -.-" Can life b simpler as we grow up? Y so complicated?! But still...I will put tis into consideration. I noe I need to start to learn tis. LOL!

I realli hate to noe too much stuff sumtimes. Sumtimes...I wasnt realli tat kpo lah. Jus happened to noe sum stuff. Now...I noe of a veri bad matter. A disaster actually. Yet...I cant share tis prob. Cos too sensitive to touch. Affairs of e heart. I am not involved though. Thank god! Frens ard me alwaes ask me...y ur probs of affairs of e heart so complicated one? Involve so many pple summore! Thank god tis time I am not included. Many pple again. Haiz... Complicated ah! I cant tell them oso! Man...spare me frm these 'juicy gossips' as wat gossipers outta would tink. I wanna help n stop all tis frm happenin so much. But...tokin abt affairs of e heart...who can stop it?! I dun wanna handle it badly. Bad experiences tells me to stay clear. I shall stay clear n wait n see. UNLESS...one of them ask me for opinions. I hope I can give e most neutral opinion. Afterall one sided opinions...kills me n e person! Experiences tells so again. Haha...

Okie...I tink I better end here. Its a reali reali long post! Dun throw eggs @ me pls! Haha! See ya!