Thanks Chefs!
I feel so SHAG! Yeah...cos I barely hav less than 4hrs of sleep todae. YAWNZ! I am too tired to actually go n get hyper wif everyone. Everyone was hyper...except me. I was pretty dead...yeah. Like some dead fish. Afterall...I slept @ 3+am last nite. Got woken up @ 4+am tis morning for some reasons. Then din sleep all e way till abt 10+am. I slept for another 2++hr. Tats all till now. Though I did catch small naps while travellin...e idea is too tempting! I wonder how I am goin to study later. I need to. Sigh.

I tink we all need to thank e 2 chefs for tonite's dinner. Tats K n B! Thanks chefs! E chicken wings was great n e hotdogs oso! Wahaha... They were realli e hardworkin chef who was @ e BBQ pit e whole nite...cookin stuff to cater all of us. So many pple somemore! I was e party tat was onli doin e eatin part. *guilty party* I did some mashmallows for myself. Heehee...I am selfish. I am a fishmonger! Wahaha...

Anyway...someting hit me hard todae. K was tokin to me abt sum stuff. We toked abt losing someone dear to u. Wat I wanna sae is...start cherishin e pple ard u. Esp. those who r close to ur heart n matters in ur life. Dun startin treasurin them onli after u lose one of them. U will regret for ur entire life. Trust me. Not onli tat...it inflicts a wound tat will never b healed over time. As e old sayin goes...time heals all wounds. But it doesnt mean for tis one. It will onli fade in ur memory. For some...it will jus hurt more n more as e time goes by. I am jus one of e victims. But u will never b healed. Sense of guilt will jus prick @ u when u r alone. It is realli bad. Cos I was e foolish one...who never cherish e pple ard me. Onli to realise it when I lose someone dear to me. Till now...I am still feelin guilty. It hurts. It hit me reali hard when K started tokin abt it. E emotional me...(PMS @ work...confirmed + guarantee + chopped!) was on e verge of cryin again. Thank goodness I managed to control it. All I can do is try to harden myself whenever I tink of it. Numb my senses. I tink I will never dare myself again to tok abt it. Jus in case...I cry in front of e wrong pple. Scared them off. :P

I suddenly hav tis feelin. E fear of death. Death...sumting tat separates me frm my love ones. I cant bear to go thru all those crap again. It destroys me. I was tinkin of it when I was waitin for e bus jus now. Death...is sumting tat everyone has to face one dae. I wonder when I will b brave enoff to face all these. Pls...let those pple ard me...esp. those who mean hell lots to me b safe n sound. Sumhow...those who matters to me alot alot alot...r fallin sick recently. Not feelin well...I hope for speedy recovery for them. Dun torture me in tis way. For e past 2 yrs...I hav heard of numerous pple who had passed away.(like got at least more than 10?!) These pple...in a way or another...I noe them n seen them. It hurts me when I received e news. Makin me feel tat life is jus so fragile.

I got more to sae...but I cant remember. Cos my brain is dead for e time being. I need to zzZ. See ya!