I jus DUN understand...
There is alot of things which I dun tink I will ever understand e theory or wateva u call it behind them. I dun understand y pple like to fake smiles n ask qns which u noe tat e person dun even mean it. Wats e point of doin tat?! Askin someone along...then treatin e person like a soccer ball after tat?! Pushin e person here n there. Do u tink u realli can control wat u wanna control in life?! Tinkin tat u hav e ability to do so?! It is plain silly to tink it tat way. Childish oso. Cos in life, most of e times...u wont get wat u wanna. U jus got to learn how to manage ur emotions...ur actions...wateva tat needs to b done. Tis is a lesson which everyone needs to learn lah. By tryin ur best to control it...is jus showin off to pple how afraid u r in gettin wat u will b given. Dun ever tink tat u wanna work wif tat person...then e other party will oso wanna work wif ya. Not as if u r sum pro out there. Appearance VS Reality. Pple r not so easily to b understood. U never noe wat is on their mind.

Another one thing tat I dun understand is tis ---> 5 meetings in all...she came for 4 meetings. EVERYTIME oso LATE! Not late for 15 mins kind...but 30 mins kind. Never fails. I mean if it is meetin jus for fun or hangin out...I dun mind. For work wise...I mind. There is a time for everythin. --> I strongly believe in tis. I got so frustrated tat I nearly wanna dump my other grp mate to wait for her himself...while I slowly drag myself there. Since she will b late...no point me being early oso. I got to wait still. Of cos...it is damn nasty lah. I dun wanna look at e other grp mate...u stare at me...I stare at u...playin who will blink first game. We waited for her together in e end. I wonder if she does ever noe we r not happy wif it. I tot it was pretty obvious frm e tone of my other grp mate yesterdae. I would sae he sounded quite sarcastic. Meet mornin...she is late. Understandable...cos she lives far...e tot of gettin urself up is difficult. I understand. But e other one oso dun live any place nearer. But...meet afternoon she oso late?! Wat is wrong sia?! GRR! E thing is not onli me is pissed. I tink we r jus waitin for each other to see who cant tahan anymore n tell her straight in her face. Playin waitin game...patience! I jus hope tat sumhow tis idea can get into her brain b4 I hav to play e nasty character.

One thing I got to admit is...I was once jus like her in my previous sems. Laid back...couldnt b bothered wif wateva tat is goin on ard me. I jus wanna it my way. Sumhow...2 persons came into my life. One came to tok to me one fine dae. I wont 4get wat she told me. Tat tok makes me change. I tot wat she told me makes sense. I did wat she told me to do. In a unknowingly way...I changed. Cos I onli put in a small effort to achieve it...so I din tot I did changed until recently. COs I saw e reflections of me in e past in her. I saw changes in my life. She was jus like a hand...which stretches out at e rite time to pull me up b4 I drop to a place of no return. No one knew e contents of e chat. Onli me n pple whom I shared abt e chat wif. I am veri thankful for tat particular chat. I was veri veri touched back then. Cos I din noe there was actually sumone out there who will care for me. Another came along on one fine dae too! Haha! Tat person jus appeared! Like watchin cartoon...or magic show...proof! E person appeared. I struggled wif a few things. I am still strugglin n hopin tat e change will take effect fast n will last within me.

PS: Jus wanna sae...thanks for being part of my life! Helpin me wif e sickenin trials of life...