Stuff to ponder
Sumting hit me hard todae. I realised it is time tat I set aside sum time for myself...alone...to start tinkin abt sum stuff. I feel tat I hav been too obsessed wif e recent events in my life. I 4got abt reflecting upon e things I hav done, e decisions I hav made...whether I am makin a smart one or jus makin one on an impulse. Time to step back a little and tink thru it. Haha...tats y frens would sae I tink too much. To me...it is impt to tink thru stuff. To make sure I dun make stupid decisions. Impulsive ones esp.

Somehow...my temper n mood is gettin out of control. PMS?! I dunno. Probably. See how it goes for e next few daes. If not...I got to find out wat is goin on within me tat is makin me so hot-tempered. Time to control. Patience is wearing out within me. I am losin it. RELAX...is sumting I failed terribly in. Learnin how to relax is sumting I alwaes fail to learn. Hopefully...someone will come along and step into my life and teach me how to RELAX. Haha...sounds crazy. Thank god...dun hav such a topic in my academic life. If not...I sure fail! Haha...

There is this thing within me. I asked myself...y issit tat I dun feel truly happy abt life? I am happy now...but I would not sae I feel contented. Well...I hav peaceful life for e time being at least. Not much conflicts. Hmm...I would sae a small one now n then. After all...life is never a bed of roses. I noe I am not contented. But wat is e thing tat I am not happy abt? I oso dunno. It feels weird. I noe. It has been goin on for months. Frens?! *shake head* Not an issue on tat. I am contented wif wat I hav now. Family?! *shake head* No...I feel it is good enoff. So wat is e missing piece of puzzle in my life? I seriously dunno. I tink n tink...still clueless. :( Hopefully I can find e ans soon. @ least then...I will b able to work towards it n not feel so weird.

U wanna sumting veri badly...but yet, no matter how hard u work towards it, it jus seems like u hav no luck for it? Hav u ever feel tis way?! Luck is sumting u need sumtimes. Jus a little will do. Okie...I am confusing myself. Incoherent tots.

Time flies. Everyone agrees on tat. It is comin to e end of e yr again. Tat sick feelin is gettin towards me bit by bit. I noe I will make tat stupid extra effort. But...e thing is...it makes no sense! For wat shld I make tat effort?! Cos it is pointless. Put out tat little burning fire within me.

Time to go...late liao.