Disappointed
Tat word basically sums up my feeling now. Realli veri disappointed when I saw one of my PJC senior smokin @ Clementi last nite. I am almost quite sure it was him. Cos of e way he looks @ me. I noe it was him. A gut feelin. I dunno if u ever experience tis feelin b4...but e way someone looks @ u tells u alot of things. I was shocked n disgusted too. Shocked tat he would actuali go into smokin. Disgusted bcos I never like pple who smoke. Well...mayb it was bcos of his family probs. I sort of noe abit abt it. He looks so much like a drug addict to me. I jus hope tat e person I saw was not him. Haiz...all I can sae now is...if it was him, he needs to wake up!
Another thing tat realli disappoints me is...*secret* All I can sae once again is I jus fell frm heaven to earth. I am glad tat there r pple who cares for me. Thanks for being there in my life once again...to help me get thru tis time. Happiness doesnt reali last. Sigh. It hurts.
I need sum time for myself to pick myself up again. I need time to pick those broken pieces. I tink I will distant myself for a while. Need time to sort out stuff. I once wish I can b back on earth soon. I din noe I would b back so soon. Stupid wish. Cos I din wanna neglect other pple in my life...like family n frens. I dun wanna to b too obsessed wif wat I am interested. I noe I will lose out quite alot. So...I was tryin to balance everythin. It was hard. Now...no worries. Cos I am no longer in heaven. I am back to earth. My windows media player isnt helpin me too. Playin sad songs. :(
Hmmm...I tink I will siam for sum time. Will b back when I feel better. Got work to do...see ya!