Cry
I hav jus updated e song list. Placed some of my fav songs there. Jus scroll e player @ e side to enjoy them. Tryin to edit more...I onli managed to get 3 new ones though...e first 3. Heehee...others r frm e person who did tis skin. Hope u enjoy it! Will b a short update...got work to do n I am tired.
Aniwae...I met wif YW todae. Yeah...it was realli GOOD! We tok like frm 12.30pm to 7.30pm?! A solid 7 hrs. We din stop @ all! Wahaha...we couldnt finish our conversation still! I felt it was not enoff! I actually had tis crazy idea...go book a place...jus e 2 of us...tokin thru e nite. Mayb...then we will b able to finish our conversation. I alwaes feel it is never enoff to tok to her. We jus cant end e conversation. Or issit me again?! =X Talkative ah...kou shui duo guo cha. Haha... We started off frm food court...to hav my lunch...then to Coffee Bean...then to JP. Wah seh...everytime we meet up...we jus end up sittin n tokin non-stop. We din even actualli hav a proper shoppin trip b4. LOL! Muz hav one wif her some day. Then...I tink I realli no need to come home liao. Cant stop shoppin n tokin... :P
Was tokin frm skool...to frens...to relationships...to entertainment...to family...to... I dun realli noe how to categorise e others. :P Was feelin emotional when I tok abt one of my deceased relatives. I actualli cried in front of her! O_O Opps. I hope I din scared her. Actualli wanna cry my hearts out...but was too afraid tat she will b scared off by me. Wasnt tat bad when I started tokin abt it at first...then I saw her tried fanning me with e phamplets. Mayb my eyes told her I am breakin down soon. Got worst...I jus burst out cryin. I din actually had a good cry over tat matter b4. Got realli emotional. I feel realli bad to cry in front of her. Mayb tats e reason y pple sae u suffer more when u jus keep things to urself. Cos when u tok it out...u will breakdown...then cry over it...let them all out. After tat...u will b stronger...emotionally n mentally. I tink I will never wanna tok abt it again...dun wanna cry again in front of pple. So pai seh! Got an uncle bside us somemore! Come to tink of it...super embarrassing sia! I dun even noe y I jus breakdown n cry. She sae she felt bad tat she make me cry. Nah...its okie. I tok abt him pretty often...but I never cry when I tok abt it one leh. Todae...jus so special. I believe...he was ard when I tok abt him. Felt e veri touching feelin...so I jus cried.
I am feelin much better now. :) Hav u ever feel tat u wanna cry veri badly...sumhow...u jus cant cry it out? E tear glands jus dun work. I wonder if it is bcos we hav lost e ability of knowin n feelin to cry as we grow up. When u din wanna urself to cry...u cry more! U jus burst out cryin. I feel tat cryin is good. Yeah...sounds like cry baby. But hav u ever realise y kids r far more happy then adults? Cos they cry when they r unhappy. Adults keep it to themselves when they r not happy...even if they din...they dun cry. Cryin is a way of lettin those unhappiness within u out of ur system. It helps. How do u feel after a good cry? U feel better? Or u feel worst? Of cos...I am not sayin tat u shld cry whenever u r unhappy. But try to cry whenever u need to. Mayb tats y kids r far more happy than adults. Not realli bcos they hav lesser stuff to worry...they do hav stuff to worry abt. Like will mum buy me toys e next time we go to a toy shop? Will mum scold me for tis test's result? But to us...u may tink their probs r tiny. To them...it means e world to them. Hence...it is not jus a tiny matter actually. E onli diff is they dun keep stuff within them...they let it out by cryin. Adults keep stuff to ourselves way too often.
K lah...I need to do work liao. If not...tomolo late for skool again. =X ^_^ See ya!
