Courage
I need tons of it ---> COURAGE! Expect a long post...wahahah! I feel more n more naggy. :P Gettin a another yr older in abt another 2+ months time...haha...tats y. *hint* LOL! Jus had a chat wif a fren...still havin it now. I was confused...wat went wrong...blah blah blah. Alot of stuff...then I onli came to realise e diff between me now n 1+yr ago. E BIG diff lies on e word...as my title suggest. Tinkin back...things were much different back then. Needless to sae...there are good n bad points abt me back then. Good points...I was damn brave...*wonder where those courage come frm?!* Tok to pple who I barely noe...machiam like I noe e person for damn long liao. Lookin back...I feel so astonished wif e things I did n accomplished back then. Now...if u ask me to do those stuff again, I tink I will sae...'Pls...dun wanna lah.' --> Does it sounds familiar?! LOL! Bad points...endless to list. One good example...I tink I was too noisy. WAHAHA! I jus made a decision. I tink not difficult to guess wat it is.
Tokin abt gettin older soon...I still remember how my birthdae for tis yr goes. There wasnt any celebration(I mean those like party or wif cake n songs)...BUT! I would sae it was great. Cos of e no. of frens who remember my birthdae. They make it so memorable. I am happy enoff wif jus a simple sms. I tink it is much better than gettin nothin. As long u remember my birthdae...I am happy enoff. Haha...of cos...if u wanna give me more than tat, I wont reject u. LOL! A little prezzie + a small card + an hong bao which has blank cheque inside would b e best! Hahaha...I am greedy. Whose not?
Sumtimes...I feel tat human beings r sickening creatures. Yet...on e other hand, they can b e most wonderful creature in e world. Sickening cos they r alwaes so demanding. Alwaes not sastisfied. When u manage to sastisfy tat little desire in them...they continue to wanna more stuff. I am tired of tryin to sastisfy anyone. Got into a small arguement wif someone. Makes me wonder...is her demand too much or am I jus not good enoff? Oh well...she sort of stated how silly I am n blah blah blah. E wonderful side...was shown to me by e other person. I got to admit tat I hurt her time after time. I guess I will apologise to her soon...visitin her soon. Its funny how our relationship is...complicated I would sae. Outsiders might not understand. She change my world frm darkness to full of colours. She was there for me when I was realli down...n helpess. Listened to my frustrations...one of e best listeners I got so far.
Bad mood. :( Tomolo event...I got to give it a miss. I alwaes tis crazy idea when I watch tis tv programme --> Amazing Race. Wahaha...I wanna go for e race. Experience is e thing I wanna more than e $$! Travel ard e world to get to noe more abt tis world. I wanna to challenge myself to work wif tat partner of mine. Someone whom I wish to move a step up in our relationship. For e time being...I hav no one in mind. I realise tat pple in tis race struggle to stay together as a team due to e differences in them. I believe tis race will b able to bring relationships to a greater height! Then...my dream almost came true. I am jus a step away frm it. Unfortunately...my dream cant come true for e time being. I got to wait for e next chance. Enjoy urself peeps! ;)
Hmmm...tinkin of wat else can I blog abt...I tink I kind of addicted to bloggin. Its okie...bloggin brings no harm anywae. Not like drugs. It brings good stuff instead...better standard of england. I hope n tink so. Okie lah...its a veri long post liao. I am tired oso...of typin n doin some serious tinkin. I take an hr to blog these...tats y. Time to pen off. Tata!
