More Abt Me...
"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment."
Well...woke up pretty early tis morning. It is EARLY for a SUNDAE morning. I dread e tot of gettin off my comfy bed @ such early hrs. Was late for e discussion. Pretty late. Haiz...cos I slept late yesterdae. Doin research...makin sure I do sum stuff. Useful stuff so tat I wont b so unprepared e next dae. I feel incompetent when I discuss stuff wif my leader of e grp. Stress! He is smart...yet, I am e slow processing person. He pentium 4...I pentium nia. Yet...there r sum stuff I realli like when I worked wif him. Other than e tot of feelin incompetent...feelin stupid...feel frustrated tat I got to do work even on Sundae! On e other hand, I will sae he creates an environment tat allows me to learn a lot of stuff frm him. I like it when he actually spread e work over e week. Instead of all e last min work. It stresses me out. Tat explains y we hav to meet up on Sundae to work. Cos on Mon, timing not suitable for all. Tues...oso another good dae but it will b slightly late to start work. Cos Fri is e dateline. Wed to Fri...r packed daes. I oso need a breather after a long packed dae. Hence, even though I will grumble over havin no life, I will still make an effort to attend it. Cos I noe I will definitely learn sumting in each discussion. So...in a project, I usually act like a timer. Keep track of e time. But in tis one...he is e timer. Wahaha... I oso like it tat he actually goes thru every part of e work together wif everyone of us. Instead of me jus handing in wat I hav to do. I learn much lesser in tis way. Agree? Certain stuff r learnt when ur go thru it together. Jus like todae, I learnt more abt wat needs to b included in different parts of a report. I tink tat is impt! Cos I will need to do report for my FYP (final yr proj) n other things in time to come. Over e past 1.5yrs...I din realize a lot of things regardin report writing. One gd example is where to work on when u r writing Summary. Work on e objective! Tats jus part of it lah. Got more things. Sounds stupid to u...mayb. But I really din learn tat cos in e past, I will jus hand in my part to my grp n tats it. Cos not everyone like e hassle of goin thru stuff together.
Well...someone is in e same boat as me. She oso feel veri incompetent in her work. Her boss oso stress her out. But she told me it makes her learn. It is a gd thing actually. E hard way though. Trains u to tink on e spot. Guides u to b more successful. Thru her tok...I am more willing to make an effort to make myself on same pace wif my leader. Of cos...not to 4get another inspiring tok by someone else. Still...I tink I am behind him. Not on e same pace. My target is to b able to b on the same pace as him by e end of tis sem. Tink fast! Tink as fast as wif a flick of e finger. Tink on e spot. <-- tats e most impt one to train!
I was astonished of e way I am tokin to someone. Oh well...I was tryin to help e person. Jus like how my fren helped me out todae. Things I hav learnt...I tried sharing wif her...some points r things tat I personally feel since e both of us got e same phobia! PRESENTATIONS! I am still tryin to improve on mine. I tink I can save e entire chat n start makin a change in how I present. Cos same prob mah. I wonder if I can do wat I am tellin her now. Sayin n doin it is 2 different things. I learnt abt tinkin e end product...wat I wanna @ e veri end...instead of focusing on e process.
Here is wat I told her...abt presentations! I myself is shocked wif wat I am goin to type below... O_O I am jus tryin to blog down so tat I can do my references in time to come for my presentations in skool. I tink it will help me. I oso hope it will b of help to u! Wahaha...enjoy!
I tink when u present sumting, u got to realli feel for wat u present. I mean u got to put urself into e topic. Like presenting a product...u realli got to feel tat e product is GOOD! If u hav doubts in it...sumhow, u jus cant speak wif convictions. Speakin wif convictions make ur presentation convincing. U will naturally speak wif convictions when u believe strongly in wateva u sae. If u r tat type who will trip over words...tongue tied...stun @ e qns post 2 ya, u r not alone! I am jus another livin example. Wahahaha...hear me tok on normal conversation u might catch me tongue tied oso. LOL! So...how to conquer??? I am learning to do so oso.
I tink tongue tied is sumting tat u cant realli helped it. Jus remember to speak slowly...if u r tongue tied, jus sae 'SORRY!' then continue. Got 2 b more thick-skinned in tis. As for trippin over words...same case as tongue tied. Jus sae 'Sorry!' It doesnt hurts. Instead it ease e furstrations. Start realli slow...mayb e slowest u can go...dun hav to worry...cos u will naturally pick up e speed.
Stun @ e qns??? Freak out? Nah...need not. It is actually veri easy to tackle e qns sumtimes...if u tink of it again after e presentations is over. Or mayb when ur teacher helps to explain in replacement for ya. So wat makes it so hard??? E chemical called adrenaline. LOL! A powerful chemical which can make u do all e impossibles. Yet...it can destroy u too! How to handle it is impt. RELAX is e golden word. How to make urself relax? Preparations. Tis is wat tat is goin to help u. Prepare ur work...make super duper sure tat u understand all e facts n nitty gritty details b4 u go for presentations. Jus understand. No need to memorise all e details. Jus memorise e main points! Who cares abt e details??? If u understand ur materials well enoff...e details will naturally seeps inside u. So u can use ur own words to explain...dun hav to stick wif those terms u found in ur research. Make sense? Who cares abt those terms? Simple terms which make pple understand...is much better than chim chim terms. Cos pple attend presentations to understand stuff...not to b impressed wif those chim chim terms. A good presentation is one which makes understandin simple...n comvinces pple. Oh yah...another thing is dun stress urself e nite b4. Prepare b4 hand. E nite b4...u shld b playin or jus doin stuff to relax. If it cant b helped, u can onli prepare e nite b4, stop when u realise tat u cant remember anymore stuff. Or u feel tat ur standards starts droppin. Its a signal u r tired...u need to rest n relax. Be confident n trust urself tat u can do it. Tat u hav put in enoff effort for it. Tat u can remember e facts wif e amt of effort. LOL! I seriously tinkin abt whether I can achieve wat I jus sae abt Q n A session.
Now I understand y my fren hit me so hard wif facts. (well...tats wat he tinks...sumtimes lah) Wahaha... Cos e more u care abt wanting someone to change for e better...u will hit e person hard wif facts. I admit I do sumtimes. :P Hit 2 pple liao. I see myself in them. LOL. Jus a mirror image. As to wat is e similar thing...I shall not reveal it. I feel e same way jus now when I was tokin to her...explainin wat I was hopin to get into her. I noe I hit her hard. Cos she got frustrated in e end. Opps! I dun mean it. Tat happens when u become pek chek when e person jus dun get it into her system. I tink I oso noe y on her side she is so frustrated. Cos I am jus like tat. :P I din wanna get it into my system until I saw how impt it was. Cos pple need time to accept facts. Hard true facts abt themselves is not easy for one to accept. Esp. when it is facts abt their flaws. Everyone wanna tink they r good or perfect. But e thing is no one is perfect. --> I like tis statement esp. Cos I strongly believe it. BUT...I take sum time to accept abt my flaws lah. Challenge if u tink u r perfect! I will make sure I knock ur head in pieces. Haha... I am accepting those flaws...makin efforts to change for e better in each dae of my life. :D
On a side note...I jus wanna tell my fren. Dun b surprise! I like philosophies tok actually! It challenges me to tink more abt life...how to handle it. I believe I will learn a lot more. It oso challenges me to see how my own philosophies will differ frm others...how I can get e best out of e 2. LOL!
Jus a sense of happiness in me all out of e sudden. Sumting tat I myself dunno y I bcome so hyper. Mayb e tot of knowing ur mistakes...lookin forward to e dae u can sae tat u hav conquer e flaws in ya...is makin me happy n hyper. I feel movin so much out of e sudden. Thanks fren! Wahahah...jus take it I am suffering frm e sudden fluctuation of hormones. HAHA! Opps! I cant promise a SHORT entry. Its realli SHORT after all. I got too much to sae...n remember. Well...if u actually go thru ALL of wat I hav typed, I applause to ya! Good job! LOL! I am old n naggy n 4getful after all. Gettin alzheimer soon...I tink. Eyes oso not workin properly...degree increasing in progress. If u see me frownin @ ya...not I angry or wat...but I jus tryin to see who r u! Cos cant see mah...squeezing my eyes. Got to sae ‘Hi’ to my specs soon. :( Ear oso not workin properly. Haha...cos I cant seem to hear pple who speaks softly due to e blasting of my earphones. :P Okie lah...I tink I shall end here...long long ah ma entry liao. See ya!