Deep in Tots
Insommia. Muz b I slept too much these daes. =X Dun dare to go n count e no. of hrs I spent in bed sia. :P Got tons of tots thru my mind. Many tots on my mind still.

Another emotional post? Nah...jus some tots...
Haiz... E yr is comin to an end soon...in jus another 2 more months. Not veri long actually. An entire set of memories flooded my mind. For e past 2 yrs...life is jus like a roller coaster. Up n downs...up n downs. I picked up many stuff. E hard way...mayb some of them...easy way?! Got to noe who r e ones who stand by me thru those ups n downs. Got to noe wat r important things in one's life. All I can sae is...hating is tiring n forgivin is difficult. I will not force myself to do so oso. I noe several pple kept askin me wat is goin on abt certain stuff. U noe I din wanna tok abt it. I jus kept quiet when u asked me. I will jus take it tat it was my fault on my part. My fault in not being able to differentiate who is good n who is bad. Still lousy @ it. One asked me if it is possible tat things will b fine over time...or rather we can go back to wateva it was in e past, I told him...a flat NO. After so much had happened...I dun tink I can. I dun hav such a big heart to accept n let go. If I din wanna tell u anythin when u asked me, it is bcos I dun wanna complicate things further by pullin more pple in. Not tat I hav anythin to hide. I dun wanna u to b in tis mess wif me. I am sorri...I am selfish in tis way. UNLESS...u tell me u r happy to b in tis mess wif me! LOL!

I am rushin to finish my storybook b4 I need to return them to e library. I hope I hav enoff time to finish it. =X Slow reader here. Jia you! Hopefully I dun hit e dreamland so quickly! Haha... Hmmm...jus had a msn wif someone several daes ago. Listening is impt. Tis is e conclusion after e chat. Okie...incoherent tots. :P K lah...back to my storybook. See ya!